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Maybe you were a detour I was always meant to take. An unexpected turning in the road I had to follow, even if only for a while. Perhaps I needed to see you, to know you, to understand the person I had to become before continuing my journey. It feels selfish to call it a detour, doesn’t it? What about the small home we built along the way? The one made of conversations and shared silences? I took my time there. I believed, believed, even if only briefly, that the road might end with you. But it was never selfish, not to you, and not to me. In that brief crossing, we both learned. We learned how to hold, how to forgive, how to care. Perhaps we were meant to forgive something old between us, to loosen the invisible thread that had bound us long before this lifetime. And now I see it clearly. I had to take that turn before I could continue my journey. Not because you were not enough, but because you were never meant to be the place I stayed. Maybe I wanted it to be you. Maybe a part of me always did. But you were already building a life that did not have a space for me. And standing at the edge of it, I realized gently, almost peacefully. Sometimes the road does not take you away to punish you. Sometimes it brings you there first, so you would know what your heart was meant to learn before it can keep walking. M. | the detour March 2026


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